失望与绝望

从报章上读到一篇文章，作者说她是一个容易失望的人，但不是一个容易绝望的人。 发现其实自己也是这样的一个人！ 失望是因为自己不是导演，无法主导周遭人事物的剧情发展及结局。很多事物无法尽善尽美。

2012

有很多医生徘徊在马来西亚和新加坡之间。新加坡有更好的发展，马来西亚却是提供近乎免费教育的地方。结果可惜，马来西亚卫生部其实并不珍惜医学生爱国的情操、为民服务的心志。

有一位朋友，胸怀大志、尽心职守，为学生所爱戴。大学却要他离开。是信仰的问题，还是妒忌、恐惧？我可以相信，公义的主，申冤在你吗？

可惜！可悲！

9.7.2015

求上帝开我的眼睛，不看地上的不公平，
看见天上的天使天军。
看见祢在天上掌权，
看见你如何实行公义！

求上帝开我的眼睛，不看当下的不公平，
而是看见祢永恒的计划，
看见万事如何互相效力！

求上帝开我的眼睛，不看当权的不公平，
存耶稣怜悯的心，
明白“他们所做的，他们不晓得”！

（社会有太多不公义的事，圣经却要我们相信上帝掌权。旧约有许多上帝插手世上权柄，如带领以色列人出埃及的事，也有以色列人被俘虏，数百年没有上帝声音的日子。新约有圣灵降临五旬节，也有罗马帝国掌权逼迫基督徒无数年。）

马来西亚有很多不公义的事，
留下来的可能会失望，
离开的可能已经绝望。

12.7.2015

Sharing after dinner

This is the best time of gathering after a day of battle. The sharing of the members boosted us through helping us to look at the event from the eyes of God, learning to give thanks but not to blame, and appreciating the others' effort and giving credit to their works. Nothing is greater than the sharing, in which we are recharged for another day.

Give thanks that there is a 70-year-old sister doing dressing for kids with infected wounds, young male adults helping the kids to shampoo their head for lice, excellent translators from local church, and of course for the number of villagers who believes in Jesus Christ.

Mission Impossible

Tuesday (11.01.2012) is tough that there were more than 100 patients seen. The place was called Pangkasey (please don't read in hokkien), a village in Takeo, 2 hours drive east-south from Phnom Penh. With grace and team work, this mission was accomplished. The program always started with 30 minutes gospel sharing, translated to Khmer (Cambodian language). The hearts are open and the minds are receptive. Many villagers raised their hands indicating that they wanted to accept Jesus Christ as their saviour. One baptized on the same day.

The mission impossible was on Wednesday (12 Jan 2012). About an hour after we started our clinic, the registration team member informed us that there were a total of 114 patients waited to be seen in the morning. We had to visit another church in the afternoon with another group of people. What it means is that we had to see 30-40 patients per hour. It is impossible in men but all things are possible in God. The mission accomplished finally and unexpectedly.

My first dinner

9.1.2012 First day in Cambodia

The buffet dinner is only USD4 per person. However, I am not trying the raw food which form majority of the menu. Nonetheless, the briefing with Rev Jessica Ting is beneficial.

Cambodia is under-developed with an average monthly income of USD 30-40. Medical cares are very costly that most people will die of illness because of poverty. Is this what mission trip if for? Is it to help those in need financial and medically, so that they may have better living and free medical consultation and medications? How do we feel as a mission tripper, in impressing them with the services? What do they need?

10.1.2012 Trip to Takeo

Wake up 6.30am in the morning, memorizing 1 Timothy 2:1-4. I should have memorizing bible verses more often.

Taking beef noodle for the breakfast and taste great.

We have visited a Methodist School, built by Singapore Methodist. This is a private school for which each students have to pay a monthly fee, range from 10-45 USD. These students are going to be the young leaders in Phnom Penh and thus this ministry is going to have a great impact in Cambodia.

We then spent 2 hours buying the medications, a challenging task as to keep everything in budget. What are selected is going to have a great impact in Takeo.

Arrived at 4pm, we started the ministry straight away, knowing that there was a group of villagers waiting for us since 1pm. 57 patients were seen within 3 hours. 90 people accepted Jesus as their savior. It’s a fulfilling day.

A few of the patients were seriously ill including a 4-year old boy looks like a 6-month old baby, with splenomegaly. Unfortunately, the family has no money to seek further treatment. A 12-day old premature baby weighted 1.1kg was seen.

Dear Father God, these are shocking and yet you are the one sending us here. You must have your plan. Help us to experience the spiritual healing in a country like this with unaffordable medical services and incurable disease. Amen

Cambodia Trip 1

It is amazing that a country like Cambodia has Chinese sign board. It was estimated to have 1 million of Chinese in Cambodia out of 14 million population.